I don't really know what it is.. I can't put my finger on it.. and I don't know if I really want to.
But I have just been so knackered and feeling down lately. It is not pressure at work because I am used to that. It is not stress at home because home will not be the same without the comedians I share a roof with putting on a full show.
I mean, there isn't anything new or different in my life.. It is the same. Every day and every week repeats the other.
Last night, I asked my sister to get ready to go to a mutual friend's birthday. At 10pm, she started getting restless and asked me if I ever intended to get ready to go.
To be frank, I didn't feel like going out..and what is scary is that I am never the person to do that. There was a period of time when I had to work for five weeks running without a single day off - and I managed to dress up and go out and party every single night.
I don't know what has dampened my spirit. I don't know why I feel so low. Don't tell me it is growing up... because I will never grow up. I don't want to and I won't.