What a Cow!

I am such a cow ... I mean ... a big fat cow.

I was in a bad mood today and a friend of mine called and I yelled at him and hung up..for no reason.

I can't explain why I was in a bad mood. I don't know whether it was because I got out of bed from the wrong side or what.. but I was just so depressed today.

Like, there isn't a reason to get depressed. All is great in Wonderland and the Wonderlandis are content and not worried about anything other than their own petty little pleasures and problems they create with the government. They bring it to themselves really and should grow up and leave the poor government alone for once.

On my way out of our house, I bumped into a friend of mine in our neighbourhood. She has just been operated on for cancer and was giving me an update on her condition. I don't know what on Earth overcame me but I told her all about a close and dear one who has just been diagnosed with this ruthless disease a bit too late and about her struggle in coming to terms with it. Try explaining to a 20-year-old that her days are numbered and see what reaction you get.

I don't know whether it was only the futility of the situation that made tears trickle down my face all the way to the office or that ugly bastard who cut through my lane and gave me a wink with his sidelights...

And then things only got worse .. with one phone call after a meeting after a phone call and before I knew it the day is over.

The casualties for today are: my outburst of emotions on my dear friend who is the only one on Earth who checks on me every single day, sunshine or rain.

Why do I bring more heartache to myself when I could do without it most?