Back..with a new resolution

Just a short note to tell you that I am back...back at work.. on my desk..back to waking up early in the morning and wasting a day - a full day of my life from 8am to 8pm with no breaks or thank yous - at work.

This in turn means more rants...more grumbling and more nagging.

There are things which just don't change but my resolution is to let go of things. My problem is that I have been serious about everything. At school, I was a high achiever. At university, I was the top student - with a GPA yet to be broken - and that has been done with no effort...like I didn't spend sleepless nights and all.. and at work, I have climbed the ladder firmly one step at a time...and have made it to where not many women would venture.

The end result is this: someone who has put all her life, energy and ambition in a hopeless career in a backward country.

"Stop the self-pity" I can hear people scream.. Yes. I agree. But I am not indulging in self-pity and I never did. The fact is that I enjoy the job, the stress and its thankless nature. Eventhough a lot of people think it's a waste of space and time, I feel that a lot has been achieved over the years and there is scope for more development.

But this optimistic attitude is now a thing of the past. Back to my point, my new resolution is not to take things to heart. Not to take things personally. It is only a job. I am an employee. I will just do my work and leave everyday. I will not get out of my way to make things run smoothly. I will not care. I will not share. I will not feel. I will mechanically do a job I think I can manage mechanically. Like a monkey, I will come to work at 8.30am and leave at 1pm and return at 3pm to leave at 6pm. I will not work a minute more. I can always leave what hasn't been completed today to tomorrow. Who would know? Besides, who cares?