Just a short note to tell you that I am back...back at work.. on my desk..back to waking up early in the morning and wasting a day - a full day of my life from 8am to 8pm with no breaks or thank yous - at work.

This in turn means more rants...more grumbling and more nagging.

There are things which just don't change but my resolution is to let go of things. My problem is that I have been serious about everything. At school, I was a high achiever. At university, I was the top student - with a GPA yet to be broken - and that has been done with no effort...like I didn't spend sleepless nights and all.. and at work, I have climbed the ladder firmly one step at a time...and have made it to where not many women would venture.

The end result is this: someone who has put all her life, energy and ambition in a hopeless career in a backward country.

"Stop the self-pity" I can hear people scream.. Yes. I agree. But I am not indulging in self-pity and I never did. The fact is that I enjoy the job, the stress and its thankless nature. Eventhough a lot of people think it's a waste of space and time, I feel that a lot has been achieved over the years and there is scope for more development.

But this optimistic attitude is now a thing of the past. Back to my point, my new resolution is not to take things to heart. Not to take things personally. It is only a job. I am an employee. I will just do my work and leave everyday. I will not get out of my way to make things run smoothly. I will not care. I will not share. I will not feel. I will mechanically do a job I think I can manage mechanically. Like a monkey, I will come to work at 8.30am and leave at 1pm and return at 3pm to leave at 6pm. I will not work a minute more. I can always leave what hasn't been completed today to tomorrow. Who would know? Besides, who cares?


sume said...

Welcome back! I have a hard time believing you could really do that! You're too much of a spitfire. :D

SillyBahrainiGirl said...

I am still in the office..
Wrapping up though!

SillyBahrainiGirl said...

Loosing a part of me?

Like wasting my life?
Like loosing the will to wake up in the morning and face the music?
Like the purpose of all this?
Like the drive and the will?
Like any hope for tomorrow?

SillyBahrainiGirl said...

So Odd A ... are u suggesting that I pack up and leave to a land of greater opportunities, where the grass is greener?

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