I am such a cow ... I mean ... a big fat cow.

I was in a bad mood today and a friend of mine called and I yelled at him and hung up..for no reason.

I can't explain why I was in a bad mood. I don't know whether it was because I got out of bed from the wrong side or what.. but I was just so depressed today.

Like, there isn't a reason to get depressed. All is great in Wonderland and the Wonderlandis are content and not worried about anything other than their own petty little pleasures and problems they create with the government. They bring it to themselves really and should grow up and leave the poor government alone for once.

On my way out of our house, I bumped into a friend of mine in our neighbourhood. She has just been operated on for cancer and was giving me an update on her condition. I don't know what on Earth overcame me but I told her all about a close and dear one who has just been diagnosed with this ruthless disease a bit too late and about her struggle in coming to terms with it. Try explaining to a 20-year-old that her days are numbered and see what reaction you get.

I don't know whether it was only the futility of the situation that made tears trickle down my face all the way to the office or that ugly bastard who cut through my lane and gave me a wink with his sidelights...

And then things only got worse .. with one phone call after a meeting after a phone call and before I knew it the day is over.

The casualties for today are: my outburst of emotions on my dear friend who is the only one on Earth who checks on me every single day, sunshine or rain.

Why do I bring more heartache to myself when I could do without it most?

6 comments:

Evil Odd said...

Ouch! I sure hope your night ends up being better than your day.

Isn't it possible for you to tell yourself 'this is what I'm pissed off about' and release your anger at that one thing rather than just exploding over everyone dear (or not so dear) to you?

SillyBahrainiGirl said...

great idea.. if only i knew why i feel so depressed!

Desert Island Boy said...

Because you care. Because it means enough to you that you don't want to see it all go to waste. I can't blame you for any of that m'dear!

SillyBahrainiGirl said...

thanks desert boy.. so u reckon that i am in a state of mourning over split milk?

N_Clevenger1092 said...

Why do you call yourself a cow

SillyBahrainiGirl said...

for being so bitchy with my friend ;)

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