This someone has nominated me for the Arab Bloggers Award, which has been developed by Mahmood and Haitham to give the very secure and sickly transparent Arab governments a quick and easily accessible site which lists all the Arab websites and all the Arab bloggers: people who had to resort to the internet to make their cyber voices heard after they have gone hoarse barking up the bloody wrong tree for God knows how long.
Well you know what? It didn't make me laugh. It didn't make me smile. I am sulking and will continue to sulk for as long as I feel like it. I know I am sounding a bit arrogant here as I really have no say in my mental situation and I am down, down and deeply destressingly down, whether I like it or not.
I have been in this mood ever since New Year's and I tried hard to blame it on a year which has gone all wrong, on the general mood, on my inability to let go of silly little things called values and principles and go with the general flow and finally on the tsunami... yes...it was a befitting excuse to spend the first 1/12th of the year in depression over their lost hopes and dreams and aspirations and lives.
I don't know whether the selfish me was lamenting over them or tormenting myself over MY lost life and why and what and where and how and when it all went wrong.
And then Mahmood and Haitham try and make me laugh ;) with their New Year's surprise (www.arablogger.com) and they know really well that there are monkeys out there who make us all laugh and cry everyday a few times.
Don't get me wrong. www.arablogger.com is a smashing great idea as it brings us all revolutionaries under one roof. Everything about it is more than just great. I really love it. Besides my silly comment about the mercenary police forces in ALL ARAB countries (which is true), the only thing that is annoying me is the fact that I have been nominated ;(
Come closer and I will tell you why: I am a rotten loser. There is no way I am going to win and I have never ever failed in my life... I mean considering that I made all the wrong choices in all the important things.. ehem.. I mean everything which means anything to anyone...I have been very much a very successful (ehem) person (puke)!
What am I saying? Sorry I can't make any sense today because I strongly feel I need to post something. Being a SillyBahrainiGirl, I am sure you all will find this very silly.
Silly Me wants to post something because I am flying somewhere for a short vacation and will not want to have access to the computer or the TV or the radio or newspapers or anything for the whole duration of my absence.
Knowing my luck, my plans got struck by lightening when I got an appointment which I can't move and then... i will still take my holiday and I will fly back to Bahrain and attend my meeting and then fly back to wherever I am going for my little escapade!
You see, where there is a will, there is a way!! Where was my silly will in 2004 when the world came tumbling down?